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Pregnant and not loving it..

It'd been at least four months of being pregnant now and I'd sent Wes out almost every night for some new food item that we didn't have. I could no longer find a comfortyable position in which to sleep. I spent most nights awake or kicking Wes in my sleep as I tried to get comfortable. Roger had decided to stay until after the baby was born. I was still going into the office despite Wes and Roger's worried phone calls every other hour and repeated requests to take it easy.

I'd spent the last week complaing about how nothing seemed to be fitting and that I looked like a loated whale. And the tinest things seemed to be setting me off lately. Like just last night Wes had said something about the office , or me not needing to work, I'm not really sure. All I remember is throwing the cordless phone at his head, then nearly screaming at him that I didn't want to talk about it. In between being pissed with him and Roger I've also been crying at random moments for no real reason. I'd managed to scare my office staff so much that I was forced to take earlier and extended maternity leave, just so they wouldn't have to deal with me. I came home from the office and my latest doctor's appointment. Roger was with Wes in the living room. "Can I kill Peiere?"


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Mar. 17th, 2007 08:25 am (UTC)
Granted that I wasn't carrying another life in my own body but I was tired. Days had been hell and nights even worse. We could no longer have sex so Lilah's pent up frustration was taken out by throwing things at me. Of course all Roger got was a raised voice or a pointed look. I'd spent hundreds on every food concoction you can think of. I just wished actually having a baby would be more than her being pregnant.
"Why would you want to kill Piere luv?"
Mar. 17th, 2007 01:53 pm (UTC)
Roger'd gotten used to Lilah being bitchy, but her being pregnant and bitchy times fifty wasn't his idea of fun. Although he was happy for only getting glares and pointed looks from the mommy to be. Poor Wes on the other hand got the worat of it.

I sat down and looked at him. "I went to see him today after work and he's instisting that I stay home and work from here. And that if I keep going the way I Am I'll end up on bed rest for the rest of the pregnancy." I'd forgotten that I'd told Wes I was going to be a good girl and not go to the office for work, since they'd tried to ban me from there until after the baby was born. I'd been going anyway, it wasn't like anyone there was actually going to stop me. "Do we still have cranberry apple juice?"
Mar. 17th, 2007 04:42 pm (UTC)
Over the past four months my skills had gotten better. I'd learned how to dodge flying objects and Leo had noticed on our nightly patrols. Being pregnant Lilah insisted that I didn't go out because of the danger factor but it was the only way to act out the overwhelming emotion of living with a pregnant woman. I'd began exercising more, eating better, and my minimal drinking was brought down to none. When she was 'normal' she'd give my compliments on my body.
I'd gotten use to her 3o'clock cravings and my body had even adjusted. I was ususally already up one she rolled over to ask for something.
Before Lilah sat down Cecilia brought her a glass. The older woman was the hugest help and I wanted her to be the nanny too if possible. She said she was a mother of five who were grown and off in university's. Working for us was something to keep her busy while they were out of town. She'd give me tips and her advice made a tense situation as relaxed as possible.
Reaching for Lilah's legs I pulled her feet in my lap and took off her shoes. Her feet were a bit swollen and red. I slowly began to massage her feet.
"You're not supposed to be working.", I replied."Piere's right...work stresses you and stress isn't good for the baby."
Mar. 18th, 2007 12:05 am (UTC)
The last four months had been horrible, but not unbearable. Wes was doing all he could to be supportive even when I got angry and threw things at him. I had to give him credit though he'd learbned how to duck quicker. Sighing I let Wes pull my feet into his lap and start massaging my sore feet. I sighed in frustration as he said I shouldn't be working. "I know what's good for the baby" I snapped. I'd been irritable all day and this wasn't helping at all. I sat there drinking my juice. "Where's Roger?" I was starting to get a headache.
Mar. 18th, 2007 12:57 am (UTC)
"I think he's out shopping for the nursery.", I ignored her snappy remark. A big key, as I'd been advised by Cecilia, don't engage her irritation. I just kept rubbing her feet. I noticed her pained expression."You okay?"
Mar. 18th, 2007 01:10 am (UTC)
I looked at him in a mixture of surprise and annoyance as he said where he thought Roger was. "You let him go shopping.. alone?" I drank more of my juice as he asked if I was ok. "Just a headache. "You're going to regret letting Roger go shooping alone in a baby store" I pointed out. "And I can do work at the office and remain stress free" I was determined to stay working at the office for as long as possible come hell or high water. I didn't give a damn if Peiere, Roger and Wes all agreed about what I should be doing.
Mar. 18th, 2007 01:18 am (UTC)
"I'm not the shopping type unless I'm with you cause then I get to look your sexy body in new clothes.", I leaned over and kissed her."Besides, the man has damn good taste."
Roger and I had become allies versus the pregnant monster Lilah would become. Not to mention he pretty much decorated the nursery himself. It was like having a free nanny so I couldn't complain.
Mar. 18th, 2007 01:25 am (UTC)
I smiled a little as he explained why he'd let Roger go alone to shop. "Yeah he does.." I kissed him back. "Did he finish the nursery yet?" I'd asked Roger about it a few weeks ago, but he'd just practically shoved me out the door and said it wasn't ready and as the mommy to be I had to wait. I'd been annoyed and taken it out on Wes. Roger knew how much I hated being made to wait for anything so that had just made things worse. I sighed. "It really needs to be time for it to come out already.." We hadn't really started talking about names yet, but Roger'd bought a few baby naming books and the entire series of the 'What to expect' books. So far the one for mother's was a great help for me he'd also boyght the one they had for father's to be for Wes.
Mar. 18th, 2007 01:50 am (UTC)
I shrugged."I swore to secrecy.", I chuckled."When do we find out what we're having?"
Mar. 18th, 2007 02:22 am (UTC)
"You know this whole bonding thing you two have going on is becoming just a bit much and slightly errie. I never thought you'd get along actually guess I was wrong. And we find out in a few more weeks, although Roger seems certian it's a girl.." I shrugged. "He started muttering something about it being a Morgan thing.." I finished off my drink. "You know what would be great right now? A warm bubble bath and sleep."
Mar. 18th, 2007 02:32 am (UTC)
Removing her feet from my lap I got up."Warm bath and sleep it is.", I replied holding a hand out to her. She took it and I helped her off the couch and up the stairs to our room. As I ran the warm water she sat on the bed. When the jacuzzi styled tub was full of bubbly water I locked our bedroom door and followed Lilah into our bathroom. I watched her undress and sit in the water."I think your gorgeous.", I replied kneeling next to the tub. I leaned down and kissed her swollen stomach."Can't wait to meet you.", I whispered to it.
Mar. 18th, 2007 02:48 am (UTC)
I let Wes lead me to our room. I sat and waited as he got the bath ready I could smell the stawberry and chanopane bubbles from where I was sitting. Once he said it was ready I walked into the bath room and started to get undressed. I smiled a little after getting into the warm bath as he said I looked gorgeous. "You're a terrible liar, but sweet. I watched him as he talked to my stomach and lightly touched it as he did so. "I thought we talked about this.. you doing that is weird and you promised you were going to stop." I attempted to sink deeper into the water and foamy bubbles, I wasn't quite covered in the bubbles like I wanted. I looked over at him still knelt by the tub. "You could join me you know.. the tubs big enough.." I trailed off. Maybe he doesn't want to? I tried to keep from crying at the thought of him not wanting to because he thought I was becoming a bloated unattractive thing.
Mar. 18th, 2007 02:53 am (UTC)
"Sorry...", I'd momentarily forgot the 'don't talk to my stomach' rule. I pulled off my clothes. No matter what I'd tell her she never believed that I thought the pregnancy weight was beautiful on her. I settled down in the water behind her with a sigh."This is nice..", Lilah didn't really like me seeing her naked as of late. Putting my hands on her skin I began to massage her lower back muscles. Piere had told me that was were the most tension was because of the weight."How was work?", I asked trying to create small talk.
Mar. 18th, 2007 03:03 am (UTC)
I sighed contently as Wes started to massage the muscles in my lower back. "Work was fine, although it's become even harder to get any of my office mail.. the mail boys apparently refuse to even come to my office door, much less inside to drop off mail. I know I've been overly bitchy lately, but they're acting as though they might die if they step inside my office." Okay so I might've said I wanted to kill one of them once and had him thrown out of my office, but that didn't mean I wanted them all dead. And really that was more like a normal day. In truth I didn't really remember much about what they were claiming I'd done to them or what I'd threatened to do to them.
Mar. 18th, 2007 03:06 am (UTC)
"They're all pretty young so they don't know much about pregnant women other than the stories they've heard from their fathers.", I shook my head."I can't believe I'm gonna be a father soon.", I smiled."He's gonna be the most intelligent child this world has ever seen. Finest education, Watcher's Academy, the whole nine yards."
Mar. 18th, 2007 03:17 am (UTC)
I turned around enough to kiss him. I stopped when he started going on about the baby being a boy and the Watcher's Academy. "Would you listen to yourself you sound like your father, which is never a good thing. And we don't know for sure that it's going to be a boy, it could be a girl. I swear it's automatically hardwired into your genetics that the moment you all become father's you all automatically assume that you're going to have sons."

I knew nothing about boys as far as raising them, but I knew plenty about girls and really hoped we had a girl. "Either way the babvy's not going to the Watcher's Academy or anywhere near your father or England for that matter."
Mar. 18th, 2007 04:01 am (UTC)
"I'm sorry..I can't help being a man, yes it's in my genes.", I chuckled."I was just saying luv. I haven't sent the payment...yet.", I thought about having a girl."I don't have anything against girls.". I kissed the back of her neck as my hands went to her front to caress her breasts."I wanna be surprised anyways.", I whispered as she let her head fall back against me.
Mar. 18th, 2007 04:10 am (UTC)
I smiled as he apologized when he really didn't need to. "I'm serious Wes this baby is not in any way shape or form going near your jack ass father or his precious Watcher's Council." I sighed as I kleaned my head back against him.

I turned my head to his neck and kissed it moaning a little as his hands moved over my breasts. "Mmm you know you're more than likely going to regret saying you want to be surprised right?" As he kept massaging my breats I turned around as best I could so I was facing him better and kissed him. I knew we probably shouldn't be doing this, but he'd instigated it.
Mar. 18th, 2007 04:15 am (UTC)
"Ok ok no Watcher's Council.", I replied as she moaned."But private school of course.". We weren't allowed to have intercourse but that had nothing to do with touching. Besides, I kept telling myself, it was to help her because her breasts were swollen. I was just being a good father to be. She kissed me as my hands dipped lower."I really want to be surprised...Roger is already using neutral colors...", I kissed her neck.
Mar. 18th, 2007 04:24 am (UTC)
"Good and yes private school" I smiled finally having gotten my way about one part of the baby's future. I continued to kiss my way down his body as he talked. Moaning a little every now and then as his fingers kept going lower. What Wes was doing combined with the sensation from the lapping water was making me wish we didn't have to listen to Peier. I smirked though when he told me what Roger'd done with the nursery. "Secrecy.. Roger should really know better than to try that. He keeps forgetting I have ways of making you talk." I kissed him again deeper this time.
Mar. 18th, 2007 04:32 am (UTC)
"Not this time...I'm in charge.", finally my fingers reached what I was looking for. Lilah groaned and I smirked. Being gentle as possible I touched her clit with the most subtle caresses. We hadn't done anything remotely sexual in at least two months. She was too irritable and I was too tired. But having a small getaway from the hustle and bustle of planning parenthood was good.
Mar. 18th, 2007 04:39 am (UTC)
I ground down against his fingers as he continued to caress me. I was actually enjoying myself for the first time in the last few months. And being locked away from everything felt fantastic beyond words.

I pouted a little when Wes said he was in charge. "You know you and Roger aren't supposed to be gaining up on me and trying to ruin my fun.. Besides you two always agreeing on almost everything lately is creepy. He's.. mmm..supposed to be my Roger not yours and yet you keep stealing him it's not fair."
Mar. 18th, 2007 04:49 am (UTC)
"Luv can we stop talking about Roger...", my fingers went a bit lower and she gasped."Are you okay?", I was worried maybe I'd hurt her.
Mar. 18th, 2007 04:54 am (UTC)
I moved against his fingers some more as he mentioned not talking about Roger. I gasped a little as the water sloshed around just as he moved. He almost stopped and he had this panicked look his face. I kissed him. "I'm fine"
Mar. 18th, 2007 04:59 am (UTC)
I nodded at her reply and went in a bit. She bit her lip and moaned a bit. With the other hand I touched her clit and her eyes closed. I'd missed pleasuring her...even if we couldn't have actual sex I was satisfied.
Mar. 18th, 2007 05:10 am (UTC)
I laid back against the tub with my eyes closed as Wes kept up his menstrations. I'd almost forgotten how talented he could be with his long graceful fingers. "Mmm.. Wes.." God how I'd missed just letting him touch me and letting it just be all about making me happy.

I had to admit he was doing a very good job of making me unbelieveably happy. My skin felt like it was on fire and I just couldn't get enough. "Wes.. more.." ended up coming out more like a bit of a whine than begging him, not that I could really tell the difference at this point.
Mar. 18th, 2007 05:24 am (UTC)
"You sure?", her quick nod affirmed it. My finger slid in a bit more as I felt her shiver against me. I'd never heard her so passionate and I loved it. It made me think of the amazing sex we'd had in the first trimester. Piere said that intercourse in the first and last trimester would be good, and actually would help.
Mar. 18th, 2007 05:38 am (UTC)
It wasn't much longer before I completely relaxed against him with a smile. As I let my breathing level back out I kissed him. I shivering a bit now, but mostly from the cold water and the air in the room. I was tired, satified, but tired and I just wanted to get into our nice warm comfry bed.
Mar. 18th, 2007 05:43 am (UTC)
I could tell she was ready to get out. I pulled the plug and got out as the water began to drain. I wrapped one towel around my waist then put the other around her. I kissed her before we headed to our bed. She pulled on a nightgown and I put on a pair of boxer briefs. Getting into bed I wrapped my arms around her and whispered."I love you."
Mar. 18th, 2007 03:18 pm (UTC)
I kissed him as we got settled into bed. "Love you to.." I managed to get comfortable and drifted off to sleep. I didn't usually dream or if I did I could always remember them, this time however was different.

I was about eight or nine months pregnant and I was currently standing in the last place I thought I'd ever see again, the white room at the firm's LA branch. I looked around and was only able to blinding whitness everywhere, then a second later I saw that I wasn't alone. Mr. Survata was standing across from me with a huge smile on his face. The last time I'd seen one of the Senior Partners was when I went about getting Linwood removed from his little seat of power.

Mr. Survata smiled as he looked at me. "Hello Lilah" He noticed my shock and the errie smile just kept growing. "Did you really think we wouldn't find you? You should know better. We don't just let our employees go. And we know what you've been up to, playing house with the Watcher." He sighed deeply. "The other Partners and I aren't pleased. Now I understand you left to stay alive and we don't hold that against you my dear, but it's time you came home. you're not one of them, one of the good side. You don't belong with them and it's time you stopped trying to become one of them. You see Lilah you belong to us, we picked you to work for us because you had potential. Potenial that you'd be wasting by stayimng with Wesley."

I tried to speak, but nothing came out. All I could do was stand there and listen to Mr. Survata tell me how things were supposed to be.

He looked at my stomach and grinned evily as he moved closer. I tried to move away, only to find I couldn't move. "Ah yes your baby.." He moved so he was now right in front of me. "We had a deal when you signed that contract. The baby's ours, we'll take excellent care of her. She's destined for a great many things, she might even make the history books you should be proud." Then as I stood there trying to tell him to get away from me and that he couldn't have my baby, he put his clawed hands on my stomach. I couldn't scream or make any sound, but I could feel the pain, oh god the pain. Next thing I know Mr. Survata is standing there holding the baby in a white fluffy blanket still smiling at me. "We'll be seeing you" I watched him fade away with my baby. I was finally able to have control and did the only thing that came to mind first I screamed."No! no.. no.." I fell to the floor and started crying.

I woke up with a start to Wes gentlely shaking me. I frantically looked around the room only to find we were in our bedroom alone. My hands automatically went to my stomach and I sighed in relief when I felt the bump. It'd just been a dream, a horrible nightmare. I looked over at Wesley, then I just buried my face in his neck and cried.
Mar. 18th, 2007 03:27 pm (UTC)
One second we're peacefully sleeping, the next Lilah is wimpering. Sitting I begin to shake her awake. When she finally woke up she jumped a bit then clung to me crying. I noticed that the first thing she'd done was touch her stomach. Brushing her hair back I tried to calm her down but she just kept crying more. I figured she'd had a bad dream."Luv what happened?"
Mar. 18th, 2007 03:34 pm (UTC)
I tried to calm down, but everytime I closed my eyes I saw Mr. Survata's smiling face. I just clung tighter to Wes and cried some more. I took a few deep breaths to try and calm down. "He..They.. They're not going to let me go." I started crying again. In between sobs I managed to explain a bit more. "They know about me.. us and the baby." I pulled away a little and looked at him tears still streaming down my face. "The Senior Partners want the baby. God it was awful I couldn't move or do anything and he just.. he took her and left"
Mar. 18th, 2007 03:38 pm (UTC)
I tightened my grip around her. I knew that it would happen sooner or later. I knew the six months of a 'normal' life wouldn't last. I'd read up on the firm's contracts and found out that there was a 'first born' clause."We'll find a way...", I replied. I had many contacts in the the human and demon world alike. I just didn't know if anyone would really be able to help.
Mar. 18th, 2007 03:46 pm (UTC)
I'd finally stopped crying and sighed as he told me we'd fine a way around them. I pulled away a little. "No. You don't find ways around them, they find you and they always get what they want, doesn't matter who gets hurt in the process. They're not going to go away Wes and you can't keep me from them.."

I couldn't stop thinking about the dream it had felt so real. And the worst part was that I knew they could do exactly what had happened in my dream. I knew they had that kind of power and mystical connects. If they wanted our baby I wasn't sure there was a way to keep them from getting it.
Mar. 18th, 2007 03:50 pm (UTC)
She was right; Wolfram&Hart were the strongest beings on this dimension of existence and even had rank in other dimensions. I felt so helpless because I knew there was damn near nothing I could do but I was on a mission to try.
"There's got to be some kind of loophole..."
Mar. 18th, 2007 04:11 pm (UTC)
"Well in order to find any loopholes we'd need a copy or better yet the orignal contract." I noticed the look of doubt on his face. "Luckly I think I have a few people who still owe me some favors and might be able to get it for me." I now couldn't sleep so I got out of bed and searched around for my black berry. Once I'd found it I came back to bed, grabbed the phone and looked at the list of contacts. I smiled as my finger hit Carlo Mariano. Good ol'e Carlo had contacts everywhere they were like damn roaches. I dialed the number and waited for him to pick up. I glanced over at Wes a little while I waited for Carlo to pick up. The man was great at his job, but being able to pick up a damn phone before it rang a few hundred times, he had yet to master that little concept.
Mar. 18th, 2007 04:20 pm (UTC)
Carlo was dancing around his maid who happened to be cleaning at the very moment when his phone rang. Looking at the caller ID he grinned. It read Lilah Morgan...the woman had done him many favors and considering she dipped out on the LA branch with English he knew she needed something serious. Pushing his curly hair out of his face he put on his headpiece and picked up.
'Lilah, mamita how are you?'

As Lilah called whoever I got up and pulled on some clothes. It was time to go into research mode. I kissed her forehead and mouthed 'library'. She nodded and I walked out. Standing in the middle of my home office, I looked at all the books surrounding on the walls."Where to start..."
Mar. 18th, 2007 04:31 pm (UTC)
I smiled when he finally picked up. "Carlo, I'm fine. Feeling a little like I'm the size of a whale, but otherwise alright." I could hear the woman in the background and smirked. "Still playing around with the help, somethings never change." I settled down more into the bed as Wes let me know he was going to the library to do research. I nodded at him as he kissed my forehead. I then turned my attention back to Carlo. "I need you to see if you can get a hold of my orignal contract with the firm, and have it hand delievered here."
Mar. 18th, 2007 06:00 pm (UTC)
"If I ever changed I wouldn't be as reliable as you need me to me now would I?', he asked.'As far as your original it's already on it's way to you. The firm's word is out, they're looking to collect those who survived LA. Knowing that you have that precious bundle of joy I figured you'd need it.', he took the drink from his maid.'Read it, and discard it. Your hubbywannabe should be able to cloak it.'
Mar. 18th, 2007 06:41 pm (UTC)
I smiled as he told me about the contract. "carlo I kiss you..don't ever change. What about the messenger, they plan on hearing back from him?" I was starting to miss my old life, so hurting the messenger would make me feel better. "I'm sure Wes can handle it. How exactly did you find out about my.. anyway?" I wondered how long it'd be before the Senior Partners sent somone out here to try and collect me.
Mar. 18th, 2007 06:49 pm (UTC)
'The messenger hasn't been sent out yet but he will be soon. I found out about your bundle from some co-workers gossip. News travels fast in our business you know that sweetie.'

I was surrounded by books of all kinds. I'd found some information on the firm but nothing I didn't already know.
Mar. 18th, 2007 07:13 pm (UTC)
I nodded about the messenger, then sighed when he told me the other part. "Yeah I know.. does anyone important from the firm know yet? About the baby I mean? And Carlo I hear one little cutesy mother to be comment out of you I'll kill you." I knew he hadn't said it yet, but I could tell it was coming. It seemed to be a tradition, the same as complete strangers wanting to touch your stomach and talk to the baby.
Mar. 18th, 2007 07:23 pm (UTC)
'Why so testy? Don't be mad mommy.', he chuckled.'So far the info. has stopped at me. I only knew because I dug. You need to find a loophole and fast because it's only a matter of time.'
Mar. 18th, 2007 07:49 pm (UTC)
"Carlo shut up. I'll work on finding a loophole, I'll call you if anything else comes up." I hung up and went to check on Wesley.I walke into the library. "Find anything?" I figured I'd see what he had if anything before I told him what I had found out. I knew I could count on Carlo as far as the information being trustwothy.
Mar. 18th, 2007 08:08 pm (UTC)
"Nothing new.", I sighed."Nothing to help us...anything on your end?"
Mar. 18th, 2007 08:16 pm (UTC)
I moved over to his desk and sat down in front of it with a small sigh. "I called Carlo he said there should be a loophole in the original contract. Someone should be here with it in a few hours, maybe a few days. He knows about the baby, but the Partners don't know yet,but they will soon. Carlo also said whatever we're going to do we should do fast because we're running out of time. Although he seemed pretty confident in you researching capabilities.." I smirked. "I'm sure there's a way out in the contract."
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